After feeding food to Shivansh, Jivika gives him medicine which he doesn't want to take. But with just one glare from his Rani Sahiba, he silently gulps down the tablet of water.
"Ab maza aa raha hain na?" Jivika asks sarcastically.
(Now you are enjoying it, right?)
"Medicine khaane mein bhi kabhi kisiko maza aata hai kya?" Shivansh remarks scowling at his wife.
(Does anyone ever enjoy taking medicine?)
"Oh achcha ab yeh baat. Jab mujhe woh kadvi kadvi dawai khilate the tab to yeh baat yaad nahi aati thi aapko. Ab khudpe baat aayi to dawai kadvi lagne lagi." Jivika retorts making Shivansh to playfully glare at his Rani Sahiba who sticks out her tongue at him.
(Oh well, now you're talking like this. When you used to give me those bitter medicines you didn't remember all these. Now when it comes to you, the medicines have started to feel bitter.)
Although Shivansh is happy to see have his cheerful Rani Sahiba back but he knows that he needs to talk to her soon. He has already delayed this conversation already because of his fear of losing her, but not anymore. So, holds out his hand toward Jivika who is looks at him in confusion but still puts her hand on his.
"Humare paas bethiye." Shivansh says tugging Jivika's hand gently making her sit beside him.
(Come sit with me.)
"Kya hua?" Jivika asks her husband who is looking hesitant while playing with her fingers.
(What happened?)
"I want to tell you everything, Rani Sahiba. I don't want to hide anything from you anymore." Shivansh replies.
"We can talk later, Shiv. I am not going anywhere, pinky promise." Jivika says but Shivansh shakes his head in response.
"I have now understood well that you won't go anywhere. But still I don't want to wait any longer. I have already gotten the taste of what it feels like losing you, even if it's for a few hours. I don't want that to happen again. So, please let me share everything with you." Shivansh pleads and who is Jivika to reject him. So, she gives him an assuring smile while nodding her head in response.
"Rani Sahiba, have you ever heard about Mafia or Underworld?" Shivansh asks Jivika who gets confused.
"Umm, what are these?" Jivika asks while Shivansh takes a deep breath knowing he will have to be ready to answer all the questions that his Rani Sahiba is going to ask after he is with his explanation.
"Mafia or Underworld both are literally the same and if I talk about their works, their works revolve around mostly criminal activities." Shivansh answers.
"Okay but why are you telling all these to me? I mean why should I need to know about them?" Jivika asks.
"Because Rani Sahiba, I am not only the King of Rajasthan but also the King of Indian Mafia or Underworld whatever you want to say." Shivansh replies and waits for Jivika's reaction but much to his surprise she just nods her head.
"You're not going to ask anything in response? I mean not even why I am the King of Mafia?" Shivansh asks looking at his wife with bewildered expression.
"I would have asked if I didn't know who you are or what kind of person you are. Yes, I am indeed shocked after hearing what you just told me about yourself. But I am not that shocked to keep asking questions about this matter." Jivika answers shrugging her shoulders while Shivansh chuckles in response.
"You're seriously something else, Rani Sahiba." Shivansh mumbles kissing Jivika on the forehead who beams in response.
"But still let me continue. So, just as I told you about me being Mafia King, many people work under me and many work against me. Against because I don't let them do many things that I don't find suitable for anyone. I try to keep everything under control so that no one can cause any unnecessary harm to any innocent people. However I don't get successful all the time because I am not God to be with everyone whenever they need me." Shivansh says while Jivika nods her head in understanding.
"Then what about the government and police? Do they know about you too?" Jivika asks.
"They know everything and that's why I am able to do my work so easily." Shivansh answers while Jivika thinks if she should ask the question that is going on her mind.
"Ask me whatever you have in your mind, Rani Sahiba." Shivansh says making Jivika to look down.
"Where are Dadi and Bua?" Jivika asks hoping that her husband won't get angry on her.
"They're locked in one of my warehouse." Shivansh replies honestly not going to hide anything from his wife anymore.
"Why? You sent them with the police, right?" Jivika asks still not making eye contact.
"Because after what they did to you, I wanted to punish them myself." Shivansh replies hooking his finger under Jivika's chin and lifting her face to make her look at him.
"Gussa aa raha hain humpe?" Shivansh asks softly.
(Are you getting angry with me?)
"Mujhe gussa nahi aa raha. Bas thoda dukh ho raha hai ki aapne yeh sab mujhe pehle nahi bataya. Ager aap pehle hi sab bata dete to aaj aapko itni chot nahi pohuchti." Jivika replies while a tear slips out of her eyes which Shivansh wipes instantly with his thumb.
(I am not angry. I am just feeling a little sad that you didn't tell me all this earlier. If you had told me everything earlier then today you wouldn't have been hurt so much.)
"Humesha cheezo par humara bas nahi hota hain aur aaj jo bhi hua woh usika natija hain. Hum maante hain ki humne galat ki aapse itni badi baat chhupakar. Lekin hum bhi kya karte? Humein laga aap shayad yeh sab na samjhe aur humein chhodke chali jaaye. Hum aapko khona nahi chahte the aur isi wajah se aapko sach batane se katrate rahe." Shivansh says while a lump form in his throat as he is holding back himself from crying. He doesn't know why but he is feeling very weak from inside. Maybe because finally he is showing his vulnerable side to his wife.
(We don't always have control over things and whatever happened today is the result of that. I accept that I made a mistake by hiding such big thing from you. But what could I do? I thought you would leave me after learning about everything. I didn't want to lose you and that's why I was hesitant to tell you everything.)
"Shiv, aapke bina main adhure hu to aapne soch bhi kaise liya ki itni chhoti si baat par main aapko chhod dungi? Aapse mera wajood jura hua hain. Aapki wajah se hi aaj main sar uthake chal paa rahi hu. Aapne meri zindagi mein itni saari khushiyan bhar di hain ki main ginte ginte thak jaungi lekin phir bhi aap se mili hui khushiya kabhi kam nahi padegi." Jivika replies holding Shivansh's face between her small palms while Shivansh looks at her with moist eyes.
(Shiv, I am incomplete without you then how could you think that because of such small matter I would leave you? My existence is bound with you. It is because of you that I can walk with my head held high today. You have filled my life with so much happiness that if I keep counting it I may get tired, but the happiness I have gotten from you will never fall away.)
"Are you crying, Shiv?" Jivika asks worriedly while Shivansh shakes her head before blinking his eyes to clear everything.
"No, I don't cry. I think something must have gone inside my eyes." Shivansh replies still blinking his eyes but Jivika has already understood what her husband is trying to do. So, she wraps her hands around his neck pulling him in a comforting hug which makes Shivansh shut his eyes tightly. Meanwhile, a traitorous tear slides out of his eyes which he quickly wipes with his finger.
"Sometimes we can show weakness too because that's why we are human. It's alright to feel vulnerable, Shiv. Especially in front of me because I am your wife and I will never judge you for showing your weakness." Jivika says running her hands on Shivansh's back being careful of his injuries.
"Humein kabhi bhi chhodkar mat jaiyega please, Rani Sahiba. Hum nahi jee payenge. Aap humari sirf zarurat nahi, adat ban chuki hain. Ager humare bina aapka koi wajood nahi hain to aapke bina bhi humara koi astitva nahi hain." Shivansh replies clutching Jivika close to his chest while a few more tears come out of his eyes.
(Please never leave me, Rani Sahiba. I won't be able to live without you. You have become my need as well as my habit. If you have no existence without me then I also don't have any existence without you.)
Jivika closes her eyes because she too wants to cry but she knows today she needs to be the stronger one out of them two. Today her husband has shown a totally different side of himself to her and she feels proud seeing the trust her Shiv has in her.
"Hum dono humesha saath rahenge, Shiv. Jivika ko uske Shivansh se kabhi koi alag nahi kar payega, pinky promise." Jivika replies kissing Shivansh on his shoulder before putting her head on there.
(We both will always be together. No one can separate Jivika from her Shivansh, pinky promise.)
"Pinky promise from my side too, Rani Sahiba." Shivansh mumbles kissing Jivika on the side of her head.
Shivansh, a King with anger issues and Jivika, a commoner with self-doubt who have become each other's support systems. They complete each other without needing to describe how much they have started to love each other. They don't need any particular word to describe their feelings. The care and respect they have for each other shows how much love they have for their hearts.
It is not necessary to always express what's in your heart in words. Sometimes what's in your heart is also revealed by your behaviour towards that particular someone. Shivansh and Jivika are also in such a relationship where they don't need to tell their feelings to each other. It feels like they already know what's in each other's hearts without saying anything.
Shivansh pulls away from the hug after some time while Jivika wipes both of their tears with her dupatta. She then looks at her husband to see that he is already staring at him. So, she decides to ask him the final question which is bugging her constantly.
"Shiv, why did you break so many things in our room? And why Papa was telling me that you have anger issues?" Jivika asks while Shivansh puts his head on top of her head pulling her closer to him.
"I don't know how my anger suddenly got out of control. But I think it's because I thought you left me without letting me give you any explanation of my doings. I thought I was going to lose you and out of nowhere I started feeling angry with myself that I couldn't control my actions. I am sorry for destroying the room. I promise, I will buy more beautiful things for you to decorate our room." Shivansh replies while Jivika chuckles seeing the powerful King babbling like a kid.
"Shiv, I am not worried about the broken things. I am worried about your anger which got you injured. Now, you have to promise me that whenever you feel that your anger is getting out of your hold you will chant Ganpati Bappa's name. You know he helps me whenever I chant his name so I am sure that he will help you too." Jivika says making Shivansh to nod his head in response.
"I will definitely remember to take Ganpati Bappa's name whenever I get angry. Now are you happy?" Shivansh asks looking at his wife who is grinning from ear to ear.
"A big yes." Jivika replies with a big smile on her face.
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